This morning I put my down jacket on over my pjs and robe (yeah, it was really cute) and went outside with a cup of steaming tea and watched the sun come up over the mountains. The birds were noisy and busy, the dew diamonds still hanging on the grass; I was soaking in the quiet of the morning. The bluebirds are making their nest, I’ve got to clean the house for company tomorrow, the green of spring is so beautiful, tons of laundry to do today, wow! So many different kinds of birds around here! Yeah, I really have to make those phone calls, it is so very quiet out here in the morning … just me and the birds, what will we have for dinner tonight? I have got to get my haircut. The air is so fresh. I wonder what the kids are doing now.
Words like beauty, thankfulness, contentment fought with words like stress, busy, work, to do list, have to, should. The morning was quiet and still but my head certainly wasn’t. Can I ever be really thankful, really content and really quiet? I feel sometimes like a preschooler who is anxious to get on to the next thing and considers one minute of quiet a really long time.
Words from Scripture come to mind too: “Be still and know that I am God.” (Ps. 46:10 NIV)
“Consider the birds of the air, they neither toil nor spin…” (Mt.6:26 KJV)
What also came to mind were quiet times with the kids when they were young. We sat on the hammock together and just listened to sounds and called them out as we heard. We found a butterfly in the midst of the struggle to break out of the cocoon. We sat on the grass and watched for an hour as the cocoon became a butterfly.
What do I miss every day as I am fixated on my schedule and my “should dos”?
Now my tea is cold, my jacket too warm, and neighbors are waking up. Music is playing, cars are driving by, the blackbirds have replaced the songbirds, and my tale is done. But my struggle to find the quiet in my day is not. Lord, open my eyes to really see You, to see what You have made, what You are doing and who You are and to make that the first and foremost on my list today.
“Look at the birds. They don’t need to plant or harvest or put food in barns because your heavenly Father feeds them. And you are far more valuable to Him than they are. Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Of course not.”
“Your heavenly Father already knows all your needs, and He will give you all you need from day to day if you live for Him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern.” (Mt. 6: 26, 27, 32, 33 NLT)
Jan Roberson has been a mentor in the Bigfork MOPS for 7 years. She has taught in public and private schools, homeschooled and has been a private tutor. Dan and Jan have two adult children, Caitlin and Nathaniel, and have lived in the Flathead Valley for more than 20 years.